JUST AFTER I SAID I DO
Gradually, I began to fall deeply in love with Raph despite the fact that I have not even said yes to him. I began to harbour and nurse feelings about him in my heart and I could see nothing again than me saying “yes I do” to my Prince Charming at the alter.
And so when I even decided to pray about him and ask God for direction, Raph was all I saw. The convictions began to come from no where, dreams and confirmations began to show face and things began to fall in place…
All of a sudden, Joshua showed up again, this time around, he was so serious than ever. Telling me he really prayed about us and we are actually meant for each other. He gave me series of convictions and the only thing I held on to so tightly was the fact that he couldn’t manage his emotions like every other Christian brother and so I am no longer convinced about him. And beside, I had to open up to him that I have seen my very own will of God already… He was damn shocked by my response and I could remember vividly that he asked me this question… ” omolola, I hope you’re not mistaking a permissive will for the will of God? Because I know the God I serve is not an author of confusion, he can’t keep on revealing omolola as my better half and at the same time be revealing a different better half to omolola ooo”…. Deep down inside me, I concluded that all Joshua has said were just mere fabricated lies and I am just too old and sensitive to be deceived by his lies….
Trust me dear, the devil knows how to manipulate his way into your life, especially when he knows that you are no longer praying about an issue again… Raph began to show the exact attribute of the man I have always wished for and finally I said yes to him in my part five. My relationship with him was the best ever, and every sister in the fellowship wouldn’t even stop blessing God for my life for having the rare grace of having a man like Raph.
Our relationship life was balanced even though series of signs and warnings were still showing up. Talking about affections, my dear Raph knows how to channel his affections in the right way and I was just so engrossed in love to the extent that I couldn’t see the handwriting on the wall despite the fact that it was so clear enough.
…. “Finally, I got married to Raph immediately after my youth service and we settled down here in Lagos to start our new life. And then the true colours of what getting married to wrong person actually means began to manifest about seven months after I said I do on the altar”… At this moment I couldn’t hold back the tears that has already been forming while I was talking, they managed to find there way through my eyelids and straight down my cheeks, I could feel the warmth of each drop of tears and the pictures of how I gently walk down the isle with my dad on my wedding day began to flash back one after the other. My very expensive aso ebi and well arranged bridal train, our series of pre wedding photo shoots, the smiles, the charisma during the photo shoot hhhhmmm… And Ofcos, my very elaborate wedding reception in one of the best event center in Nigeria… I gently began to recall everything, talking about Raph’s passionate kiss at the sound of “you may kiss your bride”… The way he gently carried me in his arms during the reception, our dancing steps and charisma… Hhhmm and I was just so engrossed with sharing my story that I never even noticed that Amaka was already in tears and she’s not even putting down all I was saying again. I gently stood up from my sit and I walked straight to where she was sitting, I gently sat down on one of the arms of the couch she was sitting on and I pulled her so closely to me and parted her so gentle and softly and we both wept for minutes.
She then adjusted herself from my arms so gently and reached out for her bag, I watched her so calmly Now with tears forming in my own eyes too as she opened her bag to remove her handkerchief to wipe her tears and she said softly … ” I wasn’t crying for you, I wasn’t sorry for you, I’m actually feeling for myself, because I am about to make a similar mistake”…..
And just as I was about to open my mouth to talk, we heard a knock at the door, I jumped quickly to my feet and looked straight at the direction of the wall clock… ” oh my God, that should be my husband at the door, it’s past six already”… I rushed as fast as I could to the door and I opened it so carefully, and there stand my husband with his briefcase in his hands and his strong face as usual. I tried to hide my face to avoid my eyes from coming in contact with his eyeballs and I managed to mutter some words softly in a low tone… “you’re welcome honey”…. Ofcos he responded as usual, nodding his head and humming some words while he walked pass me and made his way into the living room, and I also closed the door and walked calmly behind him.
He was left in surprise as he saw Amaka sitting down so calmly with her heads bowed in the sitting room… “Good evening sir”… Amaka greeted, and now, my dear Raph tried to put on the smile I have seen in ages, he responded so softly to Amaka… “Waoh, Amaka omo Nna (as he fondly call her) is this you, Nawa oooo, you just forget about us abi”… He dropped his briefcase carefully on the center table and sat down right in front of Amaka while I stood beside his chair with my arms folded and I gently watched the angelic drama my dear husband was putting on for Amaka… And my sweet Amaka on the other hand, tried to fake a pleasant smile too as she softly responded… ” No I didn’t forget you guys at all, I’ve been so busy lately with work and the sisters in church, and I decided to visit you people today being a Saturday and you’ve not been around since morning”
He tried to pull down his tie a little bit as he responded with this smile as usual… “oh yeah, I had to attend to few things at the office today, I hope you had a nice time with my sweetheart, and I hope you didn’t disturb her with series of gist ooo”……
Try to imagine that scenario very well, you should know that by now, Amaka is already confused at what she’s seeing, and I on the other hand, I’m just like … ” father Lord 🤦🏻♀, Raph will you just stop pretending, when last have you called me sweetheart in this house” LOL
Amaka looked directly towards my direction and I returned a faint smile while she faced Raph and nodded in satisfaction… ” oh sure, what do you expect sir, omolola is my best and only friend here in Lagos, and so a Saturday with her like this must be fun and full of gist”
I’m so sure that Raph has no idea about the fact that Amaka is already getting the gist of what he’s making me go through in this marriage, that’s why he’s still forming this nice and warm attitude to fool Amaka that our marriage is the best ever. Ofcos he knows I am a reserved lady, I was well brought up and I wouldn’t even stoop so low discussing my marriage with anybody, not even my own mother.
And now, just take a look at me, I am discussing my marriage with Amaka…
Don’t you think what I am doing is bad?… If you were in my shoes will you do the same?