I’M FEELING LESS MOTIVATED. YET, I’LL GIVE THIS TO YOU. SO, IT’S ALL ABOUT MADDY TODAY. ENJOY!
Did he not cheat on me? But I saw him, about to close the door on himself and Rita that was almost totally undressed in his office.
“But if a man looks lustfully at another woman, he has already committed a sin. The act doesn’t have to be done” I said
“Did he lust after her?” the man asked
“How do you know?” he asked almost immediately I responded
“It just has to be so” I replied
He sighed then answered
“Not everything has to be the way you think it should be . In fact, if you have the right mind, you will know that your mentality is very wrong. Here, abnormality to the world is just normal”
“You mean a man, a full grown man will see an almost-naked woman and not go gaga? Men, sir, are all the same” I said
“No, the man in Christ is a new creation. You have heard that severally but never let it sink. If you were meant to do things just like every other person, there is no need for anyone to be set apart.”
That reply sunk into me. But is it my fault that I’m thinking like this? Or is it, really?
“You think the scripture’s emphasis on the renewal of mind was for play?” the man asked
I guess it’s rhetorical
. Nancy always said it, sometimes jokingly that I’m pessimistic. I used to say she’s too optimistic, that she would be taken advantage of.
Tessie used to say I’m all shades of B/W that I’m terribly negative. Am I the one who’s always been wrong?
“As a man thinketh, so is he” he said
“How does that apply to me or my situation right now?”
“Your thoughts tell who you are. You expected him to cheat on you before your wedding and so you opened a pathway for that to happen. By yourself, you brought an advantage for temptation and then accused him of falling, even when you didn’t” he said and I gulped.
“You aren’t making an hedge around him, yet by your thoughts, you are breaking the edge he has prayerfully set around himself. While others are busy praying for their homes and families, you are busy thinking of how you will slap him and file him a divorce letter if you two manage to marry”
Well, he’s right. I think of that most times. I even once thought I have enough money to stay on my own in case. But whose fault? That’s the trend these days. Men are largely irresponsible, so women have got to be independent. It’s one of the major reasons I work so hard.
“Just like your body is built by what you eat, so your mind is built by what you take in. Your mind cannot be rightly renewed when you feed more on the world than the Word”
I’m so done right now
“Just like flies get attracted to dirt, the devil gets attracted to your dirty thoughts. You granted him free access”
This was what Nancy was trying to tell me. This exactly. But I never listened, I was just so defensive of my actions. So Kennie never cheated on me, instead I allowed the devil to cheat me.
I have to leave this place, I have to leave and find Kennie and Nancy. I have to apologise to them and develop a good relationship with them both and Tess.
I have to apologise to Tess too. We aren’t so close because I once accused her of trying to snatch Kennie from me and drew a thin line between us that she wouldn’t dare to cross.
I have to make amends.
“I’m opening this door right now!” I shouted
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Let It Go – Episode 18