When Love Doesn’t Make Sense
There’s nothing hidden that won’t be revealed someday because every secret has an expiry date. Who would have taught that Letisha’s mum was behind the scary call I received some weeks back that almost shattered my relationship with Gary? Honestly, never in a thousand years would I have taught that an investigation was ongoing in my case to the extent of creeping into a group I opened for a good course in a bid to have access to my personal number. To be fair, any mother would want to go the extra mile for their children just to ensure that they are happy, so I can imagine what could have led Kerry into doing all she did.
After the shocking revelation, Gary and I was slightly shocked and couldn’t stop staring at each other in surprise. “Babe, can you believe this same number has been in my group all these while, little wonder she was able to have access to my number” I shockingly said.
On the other hand, Gary didn’t even know where and how to start addressing the issue. He instructed me to exit all members from the group and shut it down if it was no longer in use; of which I did as soon as possible. He made some unknown calls and spoke in a pissed tone. I tried not to eavesdrop because I knew he wasn’t in a happy mood. It was such a cringing day for both of us because we just couldn’t get over the fact that Letisha’s mum was behind everything.
When Gary was done flaring up, I quietly placed my hand on his lap just to see if he had calmed down a bit. “Babe, are you ok?” I asked in a concerned tone, “Yeah I’m cool, are you ok?” he responded and I nodded ‘Yes’.
There and then, I tried to calm the atmosphere down by wrapping my arms across his shoulders. I laid my head on one part of his shoulder and sniffed his ears. “Smile for me” I playfully said but Gary wasn’t ready to comply. “Baby it’s OK, just shake off the bad energy. I know you are upset but please don’t let your anger linger for too long. I can understand why her mum did what she did. It could be that she was just looking out for her daughter and protecting her that’s all. To be honest, I am blessed to have you because you are very special; so kind, so loving, so thoughtful, so handsome and so down to earth. I might not tell you this all the time but I really Love you and I’m honestly thankful to God that I have you. I love you so much babe, please smile for me” I gently said.
After saying those sweet words to Gary, the butterflies in his stomach began to dance. He smiled warming and wrapped his hands around my stomach. “Babe, thank you so much” he gently said, “Awwn, why are you thanking me?” I inquired with a smile on my face. Unable to hold back the awe, he looked into my eyes and said; “Thank you for not giving up on our Love. You know what? You are actually the first and only lady that has ever given me the privilege of truly experiencing what a relationship is. You have given me the opportunity to love someone just like I love myself. You have given me so many chances to be a better man for myself and for you too. You are so compassionate and loving to a fault. Most times, I just wonder if you are real because we don’t get to see people like you on a daily basis. I might have not told you this before but you inspire me all the time to be a better person. I Love you so much Sonnie, please don’t ever give up on our Love”.
Oh My! At that moment, I felt transformed and transported into a wonderland of butterflies. My baby was just too sweet and he really got me this time around with his mesmerising words. I was love struck and couldn’t stop blushing.
Immediately Gary was done talking, I leaned forward and planted a soft kiss on his lips. Without hesitating, he reciprocated and we kissed passionately for a long time.
Gradually, the mood began to set in and I was ready to give Gary every bit of me that very moment. After kissing, he looked into my eyes as he unbuttoned my blouse. I reached for his shirt and pulled it off before he was done unbuttoning mine. “Sshhss, babe lay back and let me make you feel like my woman” he romantically said and I smiled.
Just as instructed, I laid back on the couch and let Gary take the lead. After unbuttoning my blouse, he took it off and aimed for my bra. Gary was a Professional when it came to removing bras, as it didn’t take it a second to take mine off. “Babe, sttaaapppp!” I gently moaned as I held his head and ran my fingers through his hairs.
Every word that left my lips ignited the fire in Gary and made him more hungry than ever. When he was done with my bra, he reached for my trousers to take them off. It didn’t take long before he succeeded and gradually kissed every part of my body. I laughed as his soft lips touched my goose bumps covered body but Gary was seriously into what he was doing.
It was such a beautiful and memorable moment for me that day because Gary handled me like he had never done before. Matter of fact, I didn’t want that moment to end because I enjoyed every bit of it.
At that moment, I felt low-key bad because I knew I was going against my values but honestly, I couldn’t help myself but fall deeper into the act because my will power to say ‘No’ was crushed at that moment. I loved Gary so much and just couldn’t help my emotions at that point. After a romantic evening, we both continued our lives from where we stopped.
Days turned to weeks and Gary and I could hardly do without each other. My relationship waxed stronger and we saw each other almost every 3 days. Just when I was happy that everything was beautifully falling into place and there wasn’t any more room for heartache, I was left shocked one fateful day.
It turns out that Gary had to travel back to the states for an important family meeting and also work related issues. He was scheduled to leave in a month’s time but it was moved forward because his family wanted to see him urgently and it had something to do with Letisha’s case.
I woke up that fateful morning feeling sad for no reason actually. I guess my instincts sensed that there was a slight danger ahead but I couldn’t gasp it till Gary’s call came in. “Hello Hun, Good morning” I tiredly said, “Hi babe, how was your night?” he inquired and I replied “Fine”.
We spoke for a while before Gary dropped a shocker; “I’ll be travelling today, my flight leaves this afternoon” he sadly revealed. “Why? Is anything wrong? Why do you have to leave so sudden, I thought you were scheduled to travel next month?” I shockingly asked.
As I earnestly expected a mind calming response, Gary sent me into a state of panic when he revealed; “Letisha is seriously sick and my family wants to see me urgently. I will be away for two months”.
Shocked and surprised, I shouted; “Are you for real?”, Gary was mute for a while and replied “Absolutely!”
When Love Doesn’t Make Sense
Love can be tiring at times, especially when you truly want to be with someone but unfavourable circumstances keeps springing up every single time you want to take a deep breath and enjoy your relationship with that special person. The constant crisis Gary and I faced as a couple was beginning to get on my nerves and actually started to wear me out. For some strange reasons, we have never had a month pass us by without one problem or the other and at that point, I was beginning to get tired.
After the shocking reveal of Gary’s urgent trip back to the states, I was left shattered and devastated not because he was leaving me for a whole two months, but rather because of the major reason he was travelling. The fact that his travel had to do with a lady he dated for over a year was something for me to be greatly bothered about and I didn’t hesitate to show my disapproval to his travel reasons.
“Babe I just don’t know what to say because this whole thing sounds funny to my ears. How do you expect me to feel knowing that while you are away from me, you will be with your Ex partner back in the states. How sure am I that something drastic wouldn’t happen there while you are gone” I sadly said. On the other hand, Gary understood my disapproval towards his urgent trip and tried to make me understand things better. “Babe, I get that you are shocked about this whole situation but I want to assure you that there’s nothing to worry about. Letisha and I are over so there’s nothing to feel threatened about. I promise to try and return earlier before the two months elapses. I love you my darling, be safe while I am gone OK. My house is all yours, stay there and keep it lively while I am gone. I’ll also leave money for you in my drawers, buy whatever you want and don’t miss me too much OK. Love you” he said and I soberly replied “I Love You too.
The call ended afterwards and I sadly laid back on my bed. As I laid down, my heart kept beating fast and my feet suddenly became cold. Lost in thoughts, I didn’t know when tears started dripping off my eyes. “When will I have a break in this relationship? Every time one heartache or the other, I am just tired” I soberly said as I laid on my bed and cuddled my pillow.
Few hours later while at work, I got a call from Gary that his flight was about to leave. I said a little prayer with him and bid him goodbye. After that call, tears clouded my eyes but I tried my best to hold it back because I was in a public space.
After a little while of being sober, I picked up my phone and went to my gallery in search of Gary’s pictures. I endlessly scrolled through his pictures as tears filled my eyes. My heart skipped several beats as I thought of the possibility of something drastic taking place in his homeland.
Deep down, I was low-key scared of the unknown but just had to put myself together and be positive that nothing sad would happen through out the two months Gary would be away. It was a 7 hours long flight so all fingers were crossed as I anticipated his call to inform me that he had arrived safely.
After a sad day at work, I retired home while still anticipating Gary’s call. Unfortunately, he didn’t call that day for reasons unknown. After waiting for a long while, I slept off and hoped that he would call the next day.
Just as expected, a call came in very early the next day and immediately I looked at the unknown number, I could tell it was Gary calling. I quickly answered the call and the first thing I heard was my baby’s nerves calming voice. “My darling, how are you?” Gary happily said and I smiled instantly. “Babe is that you? I’m so happy you got back home safe. I waited all night for your call” I happily said. He explained that he arrived very late and didn’t want to wake me by calling because he knew it was very late in the country I was at. We talked for a long time and tried to catch up on each other’s lives.
That morning, I didn’t want to leave for work and just felt like talking to Gary all day. We spoke for hours and I got prepared to leave the house as we spoke on phone. After a lovely morning well spent talking, we had to end the call because each of us had other important things to attend to.
As I left for work that day, my face was all smiles because everything I was worried and sad about the previous day had somehow vanished. Despite the fact that Gary was still away and was entangled in a situation that involved his Ex, I was relieved and unbothered.
From that day henceforth, Gary and I spoke almost every day. He made sure to call me at least once a day and whenever we spoke on phone, it usually lasted for hours. I didn’t really bother to ask him about Letisha and why his family wanted to meet him because I didn’t want any bad vibes or conversation. However, Gary still told me all that was happening back home that concerned his ex, and to be frank, it wasn’t an issue for me to bother about. Day in Day out, everything went on smoothly till all of a sudden, something was off.
It happened that I couldn’t reach Gary on phone all of a sudden. Initially, it felt like nothing serious but I began to get bothered after I couldn’t reach him for good one week. Each day, I dialed his nunber and also checked his social media accounts but he was totally unreachable. Since I didn’t have his sister’s phone number, I tried to reach her on social media but couldn’t get hold of her.
As things gradually began to escalate, I became overly worried. I remember shedding tears whenever I remembered that I hadn’t spoken to Gary in almost 3 weeks. At that moment, so many scary thoughts were in my mind. A part of me felt something bad had happened to him, while another part of me felt he had abandoned our relationship and probably played me.
In all these scary thoughts, the fact that Gary gave me full custody of his house and two cars somehow assured me that he hadn’t abandoned our relationship because if he planned on doing something like that, then he wouldn’t have given me such custody of his valuable properties.join e telegram page to read more stories from there through+233544142683 . I just felt something bad had happened; I could feel it deep down in my guts but couldn’t wrap my head around it.
A full month passed and I hadn’t heard from Gary. I honestly can’t remember how many times I cried, prayed and hoped that my phone would ring and it will be my baby calling but that mustard-seed hope always came crushing. At that period, I was emotionally drained and was always absent-minded. So many people noticed that something was wrong with me because of the way I looked stressed, drained and shattered. Nothing made sense anymore to me because a huge part of my heart was nowhere to be found. After a month of being devastated, something more devastating occurred one fateful day.
It happened that I was at Gary’s house on a Saturday evening when my phone rang. I was sobbing when the call came in so I reluctantly stretched my hand to reach for my phone.
One look at the number and I could tell it was a foreign number. My heart leaped immediately I saw the number because I felt deep down that it could be Gary calling. I took a deep breath and picked up the call afterwards.
“Hello” I greeted, “Hi Sonnie, this is Elle; Gary’s sister” the caller revealed. Immediately I heard Elle’s voice, I jumped up in excitement because I had been dying to reach her for a while now. “Elle, how are you? I have been trying to reach you on social media” I said in a hyped tone.
Before I could land with my sentence, Elle dropped a highly devastating news that shattered my whole heart. “Sonnie, Gary had an accident a month ago and has been in an intense care unit since then” she sadly revealed.
Immediately I heard the news, I almost dropped dead. Shocked and highly devastated, I screamed “What!”
*When Love Doesn’t Make* *Sense*
The journey towards a happy ending in Love isn’t always Rosy, but whatever is good and worth fighting for is definitely worth the stress and effort. There comes a time in a person’s life where they are willing to put in effort to make a relationship with someone they love work. In my case with Gary, I had sacrificed alot just to ensure that our relationship weathered the storms and scaled through unhurt. All through my life, this was the first time I was scared of losing someone. If anything ever happened to my relationship with Gary, it was going to be very difficult for me to trust any man again to the extent of fully committing to that person. My heart was at the verge of shutting down for a very long time at that point.
After the shocking revelation by Elle regarding Gary’s accident, it just felt like the whole world paused. At that moment, I felt a sharp pain in my heart but my hands were too numb to hold my chest. Tears clouded my eyes but were unable to drop because my whole body froze due to shock. It was terrible!
Have you ever experienced helplessness? Like that moment where you are completely helpless in a situation because you don’t have the ability to do anything even if you are dying to. The fact that Gary was in a far away country, totally shattered my heart because I knew I couldn’t see him or be there for him even if I wanted to. At that moment, I wanted to jump out of the bed and head straight to the hospital but the thought of him being far away broke my heart triple times than the actual revelation of him being in an Intense Care Unit. What a devastating day indeed!
After being lost in thoughts for few seconds, I finally managed to continue my conversation with Elle. “Can I please speak to him? Can he talk? Has he woken up? I hope he isn’t in coma or anything? Why is this happening!” I soberly inquired. Elle tried to calm me down by assuring me that Gary wasn’t in Coma and that the doctors were doing their possible best to speed up his recovery. However, she informed me that he wasn’t allowed to make or receive phone calls, but would definitely pass any message I have across to him.
On hearing that I could pass a message across to Gary, I told Elle to record the call. I dropped a few tears and soberly said; “Babe, can you hear me? I don’t know if you can hear me but I want you to be strong OK. You will fight this and come out unhurt because this earth still needs you, I need and your family needs you too. I’ll be holding on here for you till you come back home OK. I can’t wait to hug you again and laugh with you. My heart is heavy and I’m also scared but would be strong for you. I love you babe and will definitely be praying for you”.
When I was done, I could hear Elle sob quietly too. She thanked me for being so supportive and assured me that she would get my message across to Gary. We spoke for a little while before finally ending the call.
Immediately the call ended, I burst into uncontrollable tears afterwards. I cried my eyes out till I started having severe headache. The pillows in Gary’s room were almost soaked due to the tears that kept falling off my eyes.
That day, I totally understood what it meant to be helpless. At that moment, I would give up just anything to see Gary and be there for him, but I sadly couldn’t do anything other than cry and hope for a good news. It was such a traumatising experience that I wouldn’t even wish for an enemy if I had one.
Since that day henceforth, I took to my knees in prayer and asked for God’s intervention in Gary’s health. I prayed morning, afternoon and night but still felt God hadn’t answered me yet.
During those times of intense fasting and prayer, I began to reflect on my personal life, my values and my relationship with God. I figured I had engaged in certain acts that might have made God a bit disappointed in me. The fact that Gary and I didn’t practice abstinence from some certain acts made me more sober, guilty and also worsened my pains. I found myself amending my ways all over again and finding peace back with God. I also renewed my relationship with God.
Those days were one of the loneliest days of my entire life. I totally isolated myself from the whole world and spent the rest of the day after work at Gary’s house, so I could connect with him by being around his clothes and another personal belongings. One fateful night after crying my eyes out, I decided to go into an agreement with God as a reassurance that I truly meant business this time around.
As I cried that night, I found myself talking to God. “Dear Lord, I still haven’t heard any good news yet regarding Gary’s health. You said in your word that I should bring my case to you so we can reason together and I have done that these past days but still haven’t heard any good news yet; even after I have held you by your words. Because of this, I have decided to take things further by going into an agreement with you. If Gary gets healed and return back safely to me, I promise to keep my body till the very day I say ‘I Do’ to my husband. I promise to keep myself holy and pleasing in your sight, make Gary an understanding partner too and also give him the strength to go on this new journey of abstinence with me. Please bring my baby back I beg you Lord. I’m so tired, I’m very tired Lord. I don’t know how much longer I can keep my sanity together. Lord please, help us I beg you. I don’t know what else to do, I’m so helpless. Please help me, please! ” I soberly said as I cried bitterly.
That night, I cried till I had a headache before sleeping off. It was such a sad day for me but somehow, I felt peace beneath all the pains and sadness. It was a sober day but I’m glad I managed to scale through. Life went on sadly till something unexpected happened one fateful day.
I was at work one day and had a sad mood as usual. That day wasn’t different from other days because I still hadn’t heard from Gary even after Elle broke the sad news to me. At around 5:43pm, a colleague of mine came to inform me that someone wanted to see me outside. I asked of the person’s identity but she didn’t give me any tangible information.
Confused and curious to know who was looking for me, I went outside the office building only to see a tinted black Jeep packed outside. The car horned to get my attention so I began to walk towards its direction.
Immediately I got closer to the car, the back door opened and a very familiar voice said “Hey Baby”. I instantly turned and Lo & Behold, It was no other person than my baby ‘Gary’ with a wide smile on his face.
Before I could react to the sight in front of me, Gary got down from the car and gave me a very tight hug. With tears rolling uncontrollably from my eyes, I soberly said “Oh Thank You Jesus, Thank You Lord”.
*When Love Doesn’t Make* *Sense*
There’s always light at the end of every tunnel and though weeping may endure for the night, joy comes in the morning. Finally, I could smile again after almost two months of frowning and crying. At last! My heart was rekindled with the only man it beats for. My love ‘Gary’ was back to me again looking hale and hearty. What a relief indeed!
Immediately I set my eyes on Gary that fateful day, I couldn’t find myself doing any other thing than shed tears of joy and appreciation to God for honouring his words and not forsaking me when I dearly needed him. At that moment, all I wanted to do was hold on to that tight hug as much as I could because I never imagine such blessing occurring that day.
As we held on to each other tightly, Gary could feel my brokenness and pain because I just couldn’t hold back the tears that were falling off my eyes. He was marvelled at the genuine unconditional love I had for him. By just holding Gary, I could feel how smitten he was and also how blessed he felt to have someone like me in his life. That reunion was priceless and highly emotional indeed.
When we were done displaying our emotions and affection towards each other, Gary finally let go of his tight grip and held my teary face. “I miss you my darling, I’m sorry for everything. Please don’t cry again, I am here now and would never leave you again except you are going with me” he said with a warm smile on his face. I couldn’t say anything because I was still in shock.
As I stood there still shedding tears, Gary tried to shake off the sadness by swinging my hands left and right. He did that for a while and I didn’t know when smiles took over my teary face. I hugged him again and again till he was mesmerised by the genuine reaction and love that was in the air. He kept blushing and I join him in blushing too.
“Babe are you closed for the day so we can go home. I came right from the airport down here because you were the only person that has been on my mind for the past 2 months” Gary said. A big smile filled my face and I just stood there blushing. “Babe you are so sweet and I don’t think you will ever understand what your absence did to me and also how much I have missed you. I still have an hour left before I get off work but I’ll take permission from my boss so I can leave with you” I happily said and gave him a peck on his cheek, then ran inside to get my bag afterwards.
Fortunately, my boss was very understanding when I told her that I would be closing an hour early. She dismissed me for the day and I happily headed towards the parking lot to meet up with Gary. Immediately I got into the car which seemed like a hired car from the airport, the driver zoomed off to our destination.
All through the ride, I was sober and just laid on Gary’s chest. Mere looking at him, one could tell that he recently just went through a life threatening predicament. He had lost some weight and also looked pale. In all that, I was just too occupied with being grateful than complain about anything that was visible to the eyes. He also hinted that I had lost some weight too and I smiled as I laid like a baby on his chest.
Shortly afterwards, we arrived home and the driver helped to carry Gary’s luggage inside his apartment. I left from his house that day to work so there was food to eat in the kitchen. Thankfully, it was a dish Gary would fancy and might have appetite for.
After we had settled down and the driver was discharged, I helped Gary to unpack and there was just too many goodies for me in those luggages. He bought so many things for me and I couldn’t stop showing appreciation to him. “Babe I made stew this morning, will you eat rice or should I make French fries?” I inquired and he chose the fries.
With Fresh fries on request, I entered the kitchen to prepare it since Gary didn’t fancy the rice I made earlier. In no time, I was done and food was served. He took his shower while I was in the kitchen and by the time I was done cooking, he was out of the bathroom.
“Babe, food is ready! Come and eat” I screamed from the kitchen. Gary came down to the dinning and we ate together. As we ate, we talked about a lot of things and tried to catch up on everything that happened in each other’s life while we were apart. Gary gave me the full gist about the accident and how he battled for his life in the hospital. Tears clouded my eyes as he spoke and when he realised that I was about to cry again, he paused the conversation and held my hands. “Is that tears I see again?” he inquired and I sadly shook my head.
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As I sat in the dinning as someone who was at the verge of crying any second, Gary got up from where he was seated and sat closer to me at the other side of the dinning table. “Baby stop crying, please don’t ruin this happy moment” he gently said. I looked into his eyes and smiled in the midst of the tears that fell off my eyes. “You will not understand babe, I was scared and helpless, I thought I was never going to see you again. These past 2 months has been one of the toughest months of my entire life. How I cried and prayed day and night for a miracle but felt as though I hadn’t prayed enough for my heart desires to be granted. I wasn’t going to be the same again if anything ever happened to you because a big part of my heart would have been missing forever. You are so special to me and I don’t think you are aware of how much I love you Gary. How can one man be so thoughtful, tender, kind, sacrificial and selfless? I bless God the day I met you because you have contributed to making me a better person and partner. I love you so much, please don’t ever leave me again” I soberly said with tears in my eyes.
At that moment, Gary was mesmerised and numb. He didn’t know what to say and just held me close to his heart. He placed his head on my head and wrapped his arms around my hands. We just sat like that, shedding tears of joy. No one would really understand how we felt that day because we were the only ones that wore the shoes to know where it hurt.
After a long while of sober reflection, I finally told Gary about the prayer of agreement I made with God and to my greatest surprise, he was cool with the new abstinence journey in our relationship. I believe God went before me to soften his heart and make him very understanding because the Gary I knew few months back wouldn’t survive without having access to my body. The fact that he was genuinely willing and ready to go on this new journey with me was something worth jaw-dropping for. God is indeed very faithful I must say!
Little by little, we overcame the trauma and shock that come with the accident that happened back in the states. Total happiness began to find it’s way back into our relationship again. Unlike before, this new peace lingered for long without any Drama every now and then.
Gradually, I began to pull Gary closer to God and it also helped our relationship too. Everyday spent with Gary gave me a new reason to want to spend ‘Forever’ with him. Whenever I looked into his eyes, I could see us growing old together in bliss.
Maybe not today, nor tomorrow but in few years to come, Gary and I will take that official walk towards the journey of ‘Forever’ where I get to walk up each day right next to him.
Until that beautiful day when I’ll be mentally, spiritually and emotionally ready to scream “Yes” to his ‘Forever’ proposal, I’ll be right here holding it down with my Boo and making everyday count because no minute gone can be gotten back again.
Love will find anyone that wants it and will shy away from anyone that despise or talks down on it. No love story ever worth telling was without obstacles, but what matters is whether the challenges makes or breaks you both.
In a generation that brags about cutting people they love off, be that ounce of hope that says “Let’s work things out” than “I’m done with you”. Don’t rush into relationships so as not to rush out. Take as much time as you need before investing your emotions in anyone so that when you finally do, you can safely bring your guards down and love that special person unconditionally just as God has loved us.
Finally, be proud to identify with Love; It doesn’t make you weak to love someone so much to not want to let them go, but rather, it shows how strong and human you are. In all this, always remember that what is rightly yours would never pass you by as long as you are expectant, so be Expectant!